The Grace of God

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I have always loved the Jeremiah 29:11 verse, but over the last few months I have adopted a new verse, Acts 20:24.

I am not good at telling the unsaved about Christ. It is my greatest weakness. What I am good at is interjecting into converations who God is , and what He is able to do.

At the end of everyday I can lay my head on my pillow with confidence that He is able and willing to do all things on my behalf, and most importantly, that I am never alone.

Blessings,

mel

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2015- The Beginning

So- It’s been a few months, sorry about that. Life has been real and happening in the Summa house and we have been rolling with the punches to come out unscathed!

I hope your holiday season was everything you believed it would be. I can speak for us, and it was wonderful! I can’t ask for more than the Lord gives me. My dreams come true all of the time, and not just because I have small dreams! ūüôā

I have some interesting news for those who have been following along in this journey.

I met with my dad a few months ago, quite unexpectedly and we are working to restore a broken relationship. Please pray for us, as in growth, there is pain.

When I stopped writing a few months ago, I decided that maybe I would stop altogether, especially since it didn’t seem that what I wrote really affected anyone or anything. As I began 2015, I started to miss the gentle tapping of the keys and the clearness of mind that always comes after a particularly special message. What I write isn’t for you. I guess saying it and knowing it are two different things. I write to Him. I tell my deepest secrets to Him, and while you are certainly a part of that journey, it’s not your journey that I journal, it’s mine. Can He use my weakness? My tears, challenges, pain, and joy to show you the way to His heart? ¬†– well of course, He is God.

What does this year bring? I don’t know. I know what is ahead and behind me is covered by the grace and mercy of God, and I will keep walking. There are days my head is heavy, and I can barely lift it for the shame, or disappointment that I carry. There are other days when I feel like I actually am Wonder Woman, and no obstacle can conquer my mission. The remaining time, I realize that I am simply here for a short time; that my real life begins, when I meet my Savior face to face.

What I will tell you whether you are new or a returning visitor- God is Able, Faithful, Incredible and He wants to come along for your journey- but He won’t invite Himself.

 

Blessings,

mel

 

How Can It Be

Old Testament Alert

Yes, the Old Testament. It rocks my world, because although God never changes the law changed for you and I when He sent His son.

I am working on the post- be ready- I think God will reveal some things to us in it.

For now- Here is an incredible song that really moves me- hope it moves you too!

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Lauren Daigle- Bless you and that incredible voice! Thank you for sharing this song with the world and reminding us of Who He IS, and what He did!

Blessings,

mel

 

A Great Big Thank You!

Have you ever worked with people who made your life different?

You weren’t the same after being around them, day in and day out for a few years?

I was so privileged to work with such a group for 3 years. They changed my life. They taught me who I was, and walked with me in faith, through storms that alone, I could not have withstood. They were the kinds of bosses you dream of, people who encourage you to be more than you are. To push beyond the limits, to believe that you actually¬†can do it. Who care as much about you as a person, as they do about you as an employee. There were many days of prayer, literal prayer in the middle of the day. Days that I was able to be real, about real life changing issues, and I was encouraged to keep going, and not even for their benefit… but for mine.

Ms. Sandi, Charles & Terry, you forever changed the course of my life, in the three incredible, fun, hard, and busy years I spent with you. Thank you for being people who care, and make a difference in the lives of those around you. You will never know what an impact you had on me, and by extension my family! I love you dearly and thank God that He sent you to me. You didn’t know He brought you all together for me, but that’s what He did. You built me into a strong, and capable woman, and it overflows into every area of my life.

I don’t know how to say it that will make you feel it, like I mean it, but, Thank You! My children will always be different because of what you helped transform in me.

I wanted to thank them today, and in tribute to them, encourage you to be such an employee, and friend wherever you are. If we can all be that for one person- we can, change the world.

Blessings,

mel

Let the Children say, “Lord, Lord!”

I really enjoy BibleGateway.com They are an instant inspiration to me, because it is the word of God speaking to me.

I don’t know about you, but I can spend time reading Proverbs and read the same verses over and over, but on specific days when I read them I am entranced by their message. Today, this is Biblegateways Verse of the Day.

A person finds joy in giving an apt reply‚ÄĒ and how good is a timely word!¬†Proverbs 15:23¬†NIV

I have a travelling mind, so it goes everywhere when I am reading and pulls things to memory that maybe have been gone for a while. A long while. I remember in my “lost” phase- it really was like I was stranded on an island when I walked away from my life, my family and friends couldn’t get to me, and I had grown toward the natives in my new land. I can remember when I was finally getting ready to swallow my pride- a whole watermelon sized knot in my throat, that all I wanted was to get my baby girl into church. That was about 8 years ago. She was between 8-9 months, and I was pregnant with our little guy. I knew I was responsible for them. It was up to me.

“If you return to the¬†Lord, then your fellow Israelites and your¬†children¬†will be shown compassion by their captors and will return to this land, for the¬†Lord¬†your God is gracious and compassionate. He will not turn his face from you if you return to him.‚ÄĚ 2 Chronicles 30:9

I am certain that this verse has nothing to do with what I am using it for. Truly. I read it though and I am reminded when I was lost that I wanted so desperately for someone to tell me, that the Lord still loved me, that His hand was still upon me, that my purpose was alive, that Hid heart still beat for me, and that nothing- no thing- could separate me from His love. My mistakes were many. More than I can count, Mostly things that make me shudder even now when I remember.

Then the Lord allowed me to marry Tim. I loved him much, he was a precious friend to me, and I realized that sometimes the Lord allows us to make decisions simply so we become usable. I needed the flaws, a marriage that wouldn’t be cookie cutter, so I could reach other people who aren’t living the fairy tail they believed they were promised.

I thought marriage was going to be this grand thing that ended with me being happy. Happily ever after and all that jazz. Then I quickly learned that marriage is what I make it. I can spend every day berating my husband for not being that dream I had as a child, or I can make a choice to love him every day and every moment as my creator loves me. I can point out all of his faults for the world to see and still I will be left with my own flaws and imperfections pointing right at me. I must be the one who brings change, and I can do it with a heart of love or disappointment. I certainly can not still be the image he had when he chose me. I have changed so much throughout our time together and yet he makes a choice to love me, and love on me everyday, in little ways that I can easily overlook or cherish.

Our children brought out incredible differences within us. Our parenting styles. Our values, our commitment to activities, or sporting events. Our two worlds merging into something quite twisted, and leaving a minefield for our children to walk through. W e have a choice to make. Will we give an apt reply to one another in these times or a timely word. I want to give an apt reply… “appropriate or suitable in the circumstances” or I can give a timely word-¬†“done or occurring at a favorable or useful time; opportune”.

They seem like they are the same- both good. But really, is it best to give a word that is suitable for the circumstance or one that is opportune, at a favorable time? I can say the same thing to Tim, but my timing is everything.

“Tim, It would be great if you could call the bank and ask them to close our account before Friday”.

Scenario one, We are eating dinner and I glance at a bill laying on the counter and remember that we need to close our additional bank account to avoid any yearly fees. I bring it up in the middle of the conversation he is having with the children. He is annoyed, and responds negatively.

Scenario two, We are alone, I ask when it’s a good time to talk with him about our week and some things that need to be done by the weekend. He responds with a time, we are able to have a productive chat about our home, family and schedule.

The Lord advised us to be wise with what we say and the timing with which we say it. He placed us over our children and advised us to grow them up in Him. To teach them His ways, His plans and His commandments. When I do that I lead them to a life of fullness, joy and eternity. That is my responsibility. They are my responsibility.

When I chose to come back to myself- to come back to the Lord, my creator and Savior; I felt the burden of their responsibility. The world is the captor of my children, if I show them the ways of the Lord, and I turn back to Him, then my children are able to turn to Him, and He will look upon my children.

We are now working with out children on solid decisions for Christ. I have gone back and forth, I think my children knew and loved the Lord at the capacity that they could until recently. I am getting questions know that are provoking thought and even concern in me as a mother. I am so desperate for them to know the Lord, that I will never be separated from them, but more that they would never be separated from the love of the Lord that drew me back to where He was.

I know they will go through life circumstances and they will have to make decisions that impact eternity. I want them to know the Lord, to know Jesus as their Savior as their father and not just their creator. The captor of their hearts right now tends to be a television show, a book, a lego, a barbie. I so strongly desire that they would be drawn at a young age to the arms of the Lord.

Will you pray with me over our children today- yours and mine, young or old.

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“Lord, we thank you for every good and perfect thing that comes from you. Your mercy, your love, your grace and truth in our lives. Your forgiveness and the washing of our sins until we from blood appear as snow. Would you join with us in intercession for the hearts of our children. We give them back to you, as you gave them to us to nurture, love and care for. We desire that they know and love you, follow you and obey your commands all of the days of your life. You look not at age, but at the hearts before you. I pray that they will be found free of blemish or stain. Teach us to pray for them and encourage them as they walk toward you. Let your hand not depart from them. Let your mighty strong arm hold them tightly within the shadow of your wings. Let the anointing you have for them fall now, that they would harness your power and use it for your glory. Deny others the ability to speak down or against their age as they demonstrate your works. Let them lay hands on the sick and see them healed. Let them dream dreams, and see visions of your works, and your hand in the earth. Let them bring the Kingdom of Heaven here, but more than any of those things, let them call you, “Lord, Lord. My Savior, my redeemer.” Let them look to you and their names be recorded in the book of life. We give you all the praise and all the glory, forever. Amen!!!!!!”

 

Blessings,

mel

Intercession Instead of Conversation

Samuel, both 1st and 2nd, are great books to read. I actually get lost in the language, in the constant turning to and from the Lord, by David and others. I found this today and it spoke to me.  2 Samuel 24

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14¬†David said to Gad, ‚ÄúI am in deep distress. Let us fall into the hands of the¬†Lord, for his mercy¬†is great; but do not let me fall into human hands.‚ÄĚ

I was thinking about how we look at other people and then how we handle them. Isn’t it beautiful that David wants to fall into the Lord’s hands? (This entire context I am creating from these words is way off from what was going on around David at the time this happened- for more info please see 2 Samuel 24, but I am going somewhere)

David has an option to have Famine, Plague or Fleeing from His enemies happen. The Lord has told him, one of these 3 is going to happen, but He allows David to choose, and instead of naming the one he wants, David hands it back to the Lord. He never says which it will be, just that he wants to fall into the Lords hands and not human hands.

My mouth can be fierce. I am just being honest, when I am not turning things over to the Lord, I have a terribly yucky mouth regarding others. Do you ever get that way? Where you handle something incredibly indelicately? Instead of protecting a confidence, or someone from being talked about, you actually provide the information for the discussion. God is dealing with me on this.

This is a main reason people choose to not come to or go back to church. We the church will talk about them. We will point out their flaws and their weaknesses, and we do it like this. “We really need to be praying about _______”, “did you hear___________?” Do we pray even once on that phone in that conversation? NO! We don’t do it to be nasty, I really believe people want to help, but talking vs. praying equals negative results.

Out of the three options the unchurched, or unbelievers are given by the church; 1. to be talked about because they are as imperfect as we are because they aren’t in the faith, 2. to go to church and continue getting beat down by everyone around them, christian and non, and 3. to go through sickness, divorce, loss alone, they say… hey none of those work for me- forget this, I will just do what I know. We haven’t shown them that we can take things to God, we have shown them that we will talk about it, because we talk to them about someone else.

I am GUILTY. I won’t be casting any stones today. How different would our internal (me and God), external (me and everyone) relationships be if they were engulfed in prayer. Jesus prays with us for His people, He stands daily in the gap- in intercession on all of our behalf. He is saying, close your mouth and let me speak to my dad through you so we can get some things done for the glory of God!

David sums it up a few verses later in 2 Samuel by saying,

17¬†When David saw the angel who was striking down the people, he said to the¬†Lord, ‚ÄúI have sinned; I, the shepherd,[c]¬†have done wrong. These are but sheep.¬†What have they done?¬†Let your hand fall on me and my family.‚ÄĚ

“Lord, would you let your hand fall on us. To bear the burdens of those who do and don’t know you. Let us stand in intercession instead of conversation regarding them. Let us look and sound like your son when He speaks to you. Cleanse us of unrighteousness that we may be filled with Holy Spirit today. Amen.”

Blessings,

mel

Revealed

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This was during one of the hardest seasons in my life… the mask is firmly on.

For many the thought of writing their love story out for the world to see would lessen or cheapen the relationship because it would remove the privacy, the secret moments, and while I agree in a small way, I mostly think that we are called to live wide open before the world around us. The world, those who don’t know the Lord, are constantly searching for something more. Their feelings become dim and they believe that by trying something new, something more daring that it will re-awaken feelings long dead. Have you had a muscle twitch before? Where you are doing something that is normal for you, but your body begins to “reject” that movement. Your body is receiving a signal to do something against what you are telling it to do. ¬†There are muscle twitches in life, but we call them crisis. It’s a time when we can’t control something that is happening to us or someone we love. How we handle these moments matters greatly. How I react in crisis says everything about me and my faith.

About 6 years ago my marriage was a mess. We were two years and two children into it, and we were rotting from the inside out. There are days decay still attempts to make it’s stance, and we fight with all we have to make it, to choose to love each other in action, even when our emotions that change like the wind attempt to undermine what God has done in this covenant. In this same year, my dad died. Unexpectedly. There is a post about him, his death was incredibly tragic and I began a spiral into something I couldn’t recognize.

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The mask begins.

Doubt. Doubt in Me, Doubt in Tim, and mostly Doubt in God. I didn’t trust Him anymore. I couldn’t have told you then what I was feeling, but it was true.

My life was falling apart. Before my dad died, I have moved my things from our bedroom into the living room of our house, and I stayed in that room. I am so grateful that our children were too young to understand. I worked out everyday, most days twice a day. I lived at the gym and the tanning bed. I wanted so much to make my outside so pretty that no one would see the brokeness within. I had an image to maintain, I had finally gotten back on track. I was on the praise team again, something I left when I walked away from the Lord to embrace an unholy life. I was heavily involved in church and going alone.

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Looks like I’m happy doesn’t it?

I shared before that Tim and I lived together, we essentially walked as far from God as possible and turned down anyone who would tell us we weren’t in the will of God. Here again I pulled on my self righteousness and showed the image of a good christian girl. I didn’t believe in divorce. I didn’t believe in being drunk, I didn’t believe in affairs. I am a very by the book person, if the Bible says it I believe it and there is no gray area. The Lord was leading me to a place where I would have to become familiar enough with receiving grace to give it.

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Yep… this is exactly how I felt, in a visual view.

I drank, I partied, I got itty bitty and browner than a biscuit. I wanted Tim to see me. I involved myself in an inappropriate emotional relationship, I knew he had too, so I justified it. I drank every night. Most nights by myself so no one would know the hold it had on me. I continued these behaviors in secret. I was so hurt. So wounded that my God. The one I call to in times of trouble, ignored me. He couldn’t have heard me when I called out for Him to heal my marriage, he ignored my cries to save my dad. He didn’t know what He was doing. I could no longer trust Him, because He wouldn’t come through. I had proof. My dad was gone, in the ground, never to see my children or nieces and nephew play a sport, or graduate, or get married, never to even be remembered by them. What kind of God is that?

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I lost about 20 pounds… p.s. it doesn’t really change the inside…

If you have been a follower you know that you can’t just come out and start saying things like that, people wouldn’t receive it well, so you have to paste on a smile, “fake it, to make it”. It’s a mask. I wore it very well. In fact through the process of losing my dad, I, an emotional person, cried 2 times in the next 2 years. I carried myself with a quiet dignity and strength and continued to tell others that God could provide for their needs. That He was able to do all things, that He was God. I knew that to be true, although I didn’t want to acknowledge it, because then I had to admit that I was suffering on purpose. That He chose to allow me to go through seasons of such pain and turmoil, on purpose.

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Pretending. Gotta have pics for the kids one day.

A few months after our dad died my brother and his now wife got married. It was joyous and painful. They got pregnant right away. She lost her first child a son at home 4 months into her pregnancy. Our family suffered. After that in the same calendar year we lost 10 other loved ones. We began to feel like Job’s family. We didn’t understand the black cloud that was following us.

Tim and I began to patch some things up while these other things were going on. Tragedy was being used to foster comfort, which began to foster care and concern again. We slowly worked our way back, we now had some trials to overcome from our time messed up. We had friends and family saying, this just isn’t working. You aren’t happy. We smiled and kept moving. ¬†I heard a Natalie Grant song, “I will not be moved” and believed it was God’s voice to me. “I will stumble, I will fall down, but I will not be moved. I will make mistakes, I will face heartache, but I will not be moved.” This was my anthem.

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At a church Christmas Party, we have to act like we like each other.

In April of 2009 only 2 months after the loss of my nephew, and 9 months after losing my dad, I got a phone call at work that Tim had run over Cash with the truck. ¬†We have a Ford F150 Quad cab (our fav vehicle of all time) and he was in the backyard with Cash and Loralei and they were a safe distance away, so he began backing his truck up. He felt the truck halt a little and for some reason he had the radio down (which is never the case) and he heard something. He pulled the truck forward. Then he heard crying. He had backed over our little guy. ¬†When he called, I was working at a local Hospital in the OR, and began asking questions, things he didn’t know the answer too. He said, “I’m on the way to get you.” I said, “where’s Cash?” “He’s with me.”

I am thinking a thousand thoughts at a time. Why is he with you? Why isn’t he at the hospital? Is he… gone? I hear his little voice just crying. Tim had done what most people do in crisis, they go through the motions. They have a muscle twitch. He has scooped up Cash in his diaper and grabbed Loralei, buckled them in their seats and started driving to a hospital. The ER at my hospital wouldn’t take a child and we knew that, so we left my hospital to get to the other hospital to be taken then by ambulance to a trauma center. ¬†The ER at the trauma center was packed. In the middle of the work day our loved ones had immediately left work to come to our aid. Our Family, friends and Church family were everywhere.

I had to give Cash to the nurses and leave the room while he was triaged. I expected to hear that he had internal bleeding, like my dad. I thought, this is it. He is really going to take everything from me. We were taken into another room to wait for him. They brought him in, and he was still crying. Over the next two days we stayed at the trauma center, while they did test after test, aside from a black tire rubber burn (literally) down his back, our little boy was perfectly healthy. I wish I had thought to take a picture of that mark. Those close to us saw it, but most people will never understand what God did for us that day. He who had thousands of angels dispatched one in time.

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Don’t take a 3 & 2 year old to the beach on vacation… there is only heat and heartache! But there he is, healthy and whole. Praise the Lord.

He awakened me. ¬†He awakened my husband. I knew again that the Lord is able to do all things, but that He allows us to go through times where the question “why?” can be asked, but not answered. He is all knowing, we are not, He has no intentions of making us so. These events, all terrible, some tragic, became a turning point for Tim and I.

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He loves me. I know he does. He planned a surprise birthday party for me.

I slowly began to remember who I was. That I was called. Although I felt disqualified, He is the one that qualifies me. The love He has for me is enough. I have spent years trying to get back to my old smile. My old joy, only to find that it was always there, but that over time the way it looks changes.

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He brought me a cat, a wild cat-literally. What am I going to do with this? I wanted a cuddly lap cat. It isn’t to be.

I will always have days that make me ask why. Why did I lose him? Why did God allow so much in such a small time. There were days I felt like Saul when he was tormented. Where everyone around must be after me, because I could not find peace, or rest. My mom was so brave when my dad died, she invited people to our church, and on a Sunday after his death 17 of my dads loved ones and friends from his 45 years walked forward and gave their lives to the Lord. Generations were changed that day. There was an impact. He would have given his life for that willingly, how can I hold God captive for something I would die for as well. There is no greater love than for one man to lay down his life for another. There is honor in death when it leads to life everlasting.

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With my family at the beach. Don’t let the mask slip. Then they will know.

Tim and I spend as much time down as up as we walk though this life together. The key is, that we keep walking. We don’t throw around words like Divorce. It isn’t an option. Period. We made a covenant with God, and despite the things in our marriage that even Biblically to most we could get out of this for, we serve the healer. The creator of good and perfect things. He is able and we stand on that every day. We are trying to learn about each other to find things that we can use for those around us. We give God glory for everyday we stay married and walking an example of true love in front of our children. Marriage isn’t for my happiness, it is for His.

Today, look over your love story. There are people waiting to hear how you have held on when tragedy struck your life. There are people whose lives will change because of your stories. The good, the bad, the ugly and most importantly the mercy.

His mercy is new today. Breathe it in.

mel

A Pearl of Great Value

O God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you; my whole body longs for you in this parched and weary land where there is no water. Psalm 63:1 NLT

David… such a poet. His words have the ability to reach me in any season, because he chronicled his seasons. He rejoices, he mourns, he loves, he hates, he sins, he is forgiven, he is a man after God’s heart. He is the picture of grace- true grace.

Life is like a spider web… yep.

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We begin by being woven and spun in the womb, what results is a work of art, a masterpiece that is never to be recreated. The mold is broken.  We begin a journey, sometimes that journey leads us to places where He is. Other times we lead ourselves to a place where we will need His grace.

No matter the course we take, He knows where we are going. He knows we need His grace, His forgiveness and mercy. I believe this is the exact reason the word of God tells us that His mercies are new every morning. It’s symbolic to us, yes, His mercy is available, new and ready and waiting for you when you wake up, to forgive you…but is it just for you?

Our “me”, “i” generation society says it means that His mercies are new for “me” every morning, I think it should be read, “His mercies are new for me to give every morning”.

I have a temper, I have told you all that before, it rises up at times and pulls long dead hurts and circumstances up, because my temper is not of God. I have an enemy who wants me to wallow, yep, wallow in my own faults, sins, mistakes until I forget my purpose, until I cancel my assignment, until I desert the task I have been given and go MIA.

This is so easy to do, but we have a God who tells us in His word, my strength is made perfect in your weakness. When I am having that moment, I have to be able to pull my big girl pants up and say, “Lord, I need You to give me mercy for them when I feel no mercy for them.” “Lord I need You to give me grace when I feel no grace.” ¬†Be real with the Lord. He already sees your black specks in your heart, the areas of weakness that we don’t surrender to Him, so just be honest! “God I am angry with them. They said this. They did this. It’s not fair… and if you really get down to the truth… God why did YOU let this happen. They don’t deserve my mercy. They should suffer.” Am I alone on this?

Most of our mistakes are wrapped around other people, not because they necessarily did anything, but because of our negative/ inappropriate actions or reactions to a circumstance that involved people. His mercies are made new every morning so that in my weakness I can forgive them and bless them and propel both of us into our destinies, to be used by God to transform a world in darkness into the light.

The spiderweb is designed to do something specific, so were you. The spiderweb has an intricate pattern woven within it, although I don’t personally care for Spiders, I see their value. ¬†There are people I don’t care for in this world, due to personality differences, due to the differences created by upbringing, due to backlash of a fallen hurting world.

I don’t have to become someones best friend, be a part of their social circle, think that they should be promoted to Emperor of my world; but I do have to find value in them. I do have to believe that they are worthy of forgiveness, of mercy, of the sacrifice of a Perfect Man on a cross at Calvary. I have to go out of my way as a follower of Him to say, I WILL FORGIVE.

Though I live in a parched land, a land that doesn’t honor our God, or Savior, Though my soul thirst for You, Despite my inner turmoil, despite what my flesh wants to do, or say. Your mercy is made perfect in my weakness, your forgiveness is available for me to accept and give!

The Lord sees us all as a Pearl of Great Price. He paid for us at the cost of His son. This morning, pray that the Lord would show you the value of those you despise, dislike, or for some of you, who may have experienced great trauma, or heartbreak at the hands of another, even hate. I pray with you, for a heart free of the trap of unforgiveness.  It will cost you a far greater price than the pain and healing of forgiveness.

44 “Again, the kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and hid; and for joy over it he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field. 45 “Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant seeking beautiful pearls, 46 who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had and bought it.

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David was no greater than you or I, but he was honest before the Lord. ¬†He was known best, not as a sinner, an adulterer, a worshipper, a King, but as a Man After God’s Own Heart. ¬†God can not move on our behalf until we let Him in. Let’s be transparent before Him today.

Blessings,

mel

A Pearl of Great Value

O God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you; my whole body longs for you in this parched and weary land where there is no water. Psalm 63:1 NLT

David… such a poet. His words have the ability to reach me in any season, because he chronicled his seasons. He rejoices, he mourns, he loves, he hates, he sins, he is forgiven, he is a man after God’s heart. He is the picture of grace- true grace.

Life is like a spider web… yep.

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We begin by being woven and spun in the womb, what results is a work of art, a masterpiece that is never to be recreated. The mold is broken.  We begin a journey, sometimes that journey leads us to places where He is. Other times we lead ourselves to a place where we will need His grace.

No matter the course we take, He knows where we are going. He knows we need His grace, His forgiveness and mercy. I believe this is the exact reason the word of God tells us that His mercies are new every morning. It’s symbolic to us, yes, His mercy is available, new and ready and waiting for you when you wake up, to forgive you…but is it just for you?

Our “me”, “i” generation society says it means that His mercies are new for “me” every morning, I think it should be read, “His mercies are new for me to give every morning”.

I have a temper, I have told you all that before, it rises up at times and pulls long dead hurts and circumstances up, because my temper is not of God. I have an enemy who wants me to wallow, yep, wallow in my own faults, sins, mistakes until I forget my purpose, until I cancel my assignment, until I desert the task I have been given and go MIA.

This is so easy to do, but we have a God who tells us in His word, my strength is made perfect in your weakness. When I am having that moment, I have to be able to pull my big girl pants up and say, “Lord, I need You to give me mercy for them when I feel no mercy for them.” “Lord I need You to give me grace when I feel no grace.” ¬†Be real with the Lord. He already sees your black specks in your heart, the areas of weakness that we don’t surrender to Him, so just be honest! “God I am angry with them. They said this. They did this. It’s not fair… and if you really get down to the truth… God why did YOU let this happen. They don’t deserve my mercy. They should suffer.” Am I alone on this?

Most of our mistakes are wrapped around other people, not because they necessarily did anything, but because of our negative/ inappropriate actions or reactions to a circumstance that involved people. His mercies are made new every morning so that in my weakness I can forgive them and bless them and propel both of us into our destinies, to be used by God to transform a world in darkness into the light.

The spiderweb is designed to do something specific, so were you. The spiderweb has an intricate pattern woven within it, although I don’t personally care for Spiders, I see their value. ¬†There are people I don’t care for in this world, due to personality differences, due to the differences created by upbringing, due to backlash of a fallen hurting world.

I don’t have to become someones best friend, be a part of their social circle, think that they should be promoted to Emperor of my world; but I do have to find value in them. I do have to believe that they are worthy of forgiveness, of mercy, of the sacrifice of a Perfect Man on a cross at Calvary. I have to go out of my way as a follower of Him to say, I WILL FORGIVE.

Though I live in a parched land, a land that doesn’t honor our God, or Savior, Though my soul thirst for You, Despite my inner turmoil, despite what my flesh wants to do, or say. Your mercy is made perfect in my weakness, your forgiveness is available for me to accept and give!

The Lord sees us all as a Pearl of Great Price. He paid for us at the cost of His son. This morning, pray that the Lord would show you the value of those you despise, dislike, or for some of you, who may have experienced great trauma, or heartbreak at the hands of another, even hate. I pray with you, for a heart free of the trap of unforgiveness.  It will cost you a far greater price than the pain and healing of forgiveness.

44 “Again, the kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and hid; and for joy over it he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field. 45 “Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant seeking beautiful pearls, 46 who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had and bought it.

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David was no greater than you or I, but he was honest before the Lord. ¬†He was known best, not as a sinner, an adulterer, a worshipper, a King, but as a Man After God’s Own Heart. ¬†God can not move on our behalf until we let Him in. Let’s be transparent before Him today.

Blessings,

mel

A Pearl of Great Value

O God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you; my whole body longs for you in this parched and weary land where there is no water. Psalm 63:1 NLT

David… such a poet. His words have the ability to reach me in any season, because he chronicled his seasons. He rejoices, he mourns, he loves, he hates, he sins, he is forgiven, he is a man after God’s heart. He is the picture of grace- true grace.

Life is like a spider web… yep.

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We begin by being woven and spun in the womb, what results is a work of art, a masterpiece that is never to be recreated. The mold is broken.  We begin a journey, sometimes that journey leads us to places where He is. Other times we lead ourselves to a place where we will need His grace.

No matter the course we take, He knows where we are going. He knows we need His grace, His forgiveness and mercy. I believe this is the exact reason the word of God tells us that His mercies are new every morning. It’s symbolic to us, yes, His mercy is available, new and ready and waiting for you when you wake up, to forgive you…but is it just for you?

Our “me”, “i” generation society says it means that His mercies are new for “me” every morning, I think it should be read, “His mercies are new for me to give every morning”.

I have a temper, I have told you all that before, it rises up at times and pulls long dead hurts and circumstances up, because my temper is not of God. I have an enemy who wants me to wallow, yep, wallow in my own faults, sins, mistakes until I forget my purpose, until I cancel my assignment, until I desert the task I have been given and go MIA.

This is so easy to do, but we have a God who tells us in His word, my strength is made perfect in your weakness. When I am having that moment, I have to be able to pull my big girl pants up and say, “Lord, I need You to give me mercy for them when I feel no mercy for them.” “Lord I need You to give me grace when I feel no grace.” ¬†Be real with the Lord. He already sees your black specks in your heart, the areas of weakness that we don’t surrender to Him, so just be honest! “God I am angry with them. They said this. They did this. It’s not fair… and if you really get down to the truth… God why did YOU let this happen. They don’t deserve my mercy. They should suffer.” Am I alone on this?

Most of our mistakes are wrapped around other people, not because they necessarily did anything, but because of our negative/ inappropriate actions or reactions to a circumstance that involved people. His mercies are made new every morning so that in my weakness I can forgive them and bless them and propel both of us into our destinies, to be used by God to transform a world in darkness into the light.

The spiderweb is designed to do something specific, so were you. The spiderweb has an intricate pattern woven within it, although I don’t personally care for Spiders, I see their value. ¬†There are people I don’t care for in this world, due to personality differences, due to the differences created by upbringing, due to backlash of a fallen hurting world.

I don’t have to become someones best friend, be a part of their social circle, think that they should be promoted to Emperor of my world; but I do have to find value in them. I do have to believe that they are worthy of forgiveness, of mercy, of the sacrifice of a Perfect Man on a cross at Calvary. I have to go out of my way as a follower of Him to say, I WILL FORGIVE.

Though I live in a parched land, a land that doesn’t honor our God, or Savior, Though my soul thirst for You, Despite my inner turmoil, despite what my flesh wants to do, or say. Your mercy is made perfect in my weakness, your forgiveness is available for me to accept and give!

The Lord sees us all as a Pearl of Great Price. He paid for us at the cost of His son. This morning, pray that the Lord would show you the value of those you despise, dislike, or for some of you, who may have experienced great trauma, or heartbreak at the hands of another, even hate. I pray with you, for a heart free of the trap of unforgiveness.  It will cost you a far greater price than the pain and healing of forgiveness.

44 “Again, the kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and hid; and for joy over it he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field. 45 “Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant seeking beautiful pearls, 46 who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had and bought it.

pearl

David was no greater than you or I, but he was honest before the Lord. ¬†He was known best, not as a sinner, an adulterer, a worshipper, a King, but as a Man After God’s Own Heart. ¬†God can not move on our behalf until we let Him in. Let’s be transparent before Him today.

Blessings,

mel