The Impact of Closet Prayers

For most of us, there is one moment- at minimum- that you regret more than any other moment. The reasons for the regret can be multiple, but the key is, it can’t be changed, or deleted. The moment happened. I have that moment stored, and I hold it close, because to expose that moment would break me, and everyone around me. I have allowed that moment to hold me captive for years. I look at it and remember it all the time. I will expose some of that moment now, so that it can’t haunt me any longer, and I will give God glory- because He is faithful and He is light in the darkness.

As I have shared before, I lost my step father in July of 2008 while I was separated from my husband, Tim. It was a difficult time and a horrendous loss of life. Even knowing he is with God, I am unable to find total peace. I desire too, but there is a weight upon me. I heard of Chris’ injury and went to see him, and while I was there I was making plans for my night. I left that day and went to watch my brother play softball, and when I left there I went somewhere else. The problem here is that normally, I am the one who goes to the hospital and stays until someone forces me to leave, unfortunately, my heart was so mixed up I selfishly left Chris and my mom to deal with it. While I was out in places I shouldn’t have been, my step father who I so desperately love, was slipping away and I wasn’t there to catch him. Even after he caught me so many times, and balanced me back out.

The last few weeks have been stressful and what happens to me, may happen to you, I get overwhelmed and I go to a place of darkness and I sit there and think of all of my mistakes, my errors- much like King David. Not that I am a Queen or Royalty, but I can read my own thoughts in the Psalms. Last night I had some worship music on and I felt like I needed to go to my closet to pray. Yes, my closet- I even cleaned it so I would have room on the floor to get on my face before the Lord. I opened my Bible and turned straight to Psalms 51, and I wept; because-there are not coincidences in His word, and the moment that you read it. He has a direct goal to bring you into His presence, to speak to you.

Psalms 51 is David crying out for God’s forgiveness after his sin with Bathsheba. He is asking God to restore his joy, to reunite his spirit with the heart of God. As I read this, I could relate on such a level that I almost felt like I was in the Kings palace, knowing I have everything, but not allowing that to satisfy me, and then carrying the weight of my sin along with all of my armor. The load is heavy, but He- Oh the Lord is faithful. As I was weeping I heard the closet door open, and felt a little body slip in. I didn’t look up, just continued to cry and pray to the Lord, and I heard a sweet voice calling out for God to come- to be with us in mommy’s closet. I looked up and my son-7 has his face on the carpet crying out to the Lord, and I broke.

That is our God. That is His presence and His love. He calls us to a place of brokenness and then He showers us with blessings and favor far beyond what we deserve. My sin deserved death. My God exchanged my sentence and instead gave me life. My heart exalts the Lord, exhorts His Name. He is a faithful, and just God. He is a loving father, and a joyful friend. He is one who mourns with you, and calls you back to joy.

I cannot take back my errors or my decisions, and despite how highly I thought of myself, I could not save my dear step father- I am not God. He allowed the loss, and while I may carry the pain and guilt of that for years to come, I know that I am forgiven and I am loved- beyond measure, against all odds, He calls to me, and says, “My Beloved, come.”

He says that to you today as well, “My Beloved, come.” He wants you to bring Him nothing but yourself, broken, used, devastated, heart broken, hurting, lonely, empty. He wants to take us from paupers, commoners and promote us to Royalty. He says- “For you and You alone, I would send my son to die, a sinner’s death- your death- on a cross- because I so desperately love you, that I had to tear the veil to give you access to my Holy Places.”

Go to Him today- and lay yourself before the Lord- and let your children see a contrite heart before the Lord. Show them the access that Jesus paid for- teach them to pave a way into His presence.




Fully Invested Moments

There are defining moments in every persons life. My moments have been like yours, some grab you and you feel completely unable to handle the battle in front of you. You are David and Goliath is standing there, and the stones are slipping from your hands, as the sword is thrust powerfully through your armor and you are completely unprepared for the wound that hides under the armor.

Other moments, you already have the sling in the air, and the whirring sound of it whizzing around is more deafening than the shaking of an entire armies armor. The stone connects and you didn’t even realize you released it.


I don’t know what moment this is for me. It is a moment, something is changing, something deep within me, that is un-content with the same ole stuff. Dreams are coming back to life that I buried long ago, and they came back bigger. Like a weed does, with those dreams coming back bigger, fears have grown until they tower over me. I am learning that my greatest fear is to be forgotten.

That my  life will have counted-for nothing. I am nothing but a vapor anyway. I don’t know about you, I really don’t. Most of you, if you follow this, I don’t know your names, I haven’t even figured out (despite being quite tech savy) how to figure out who does or doesn’t get a copy of this in their email everyday. I don’t know your life, your story. Your hopes, dreams, failures- epic failures. I just know we are all the same, because we have them. I believe you, like I have hopes that are gigantic, and wonderful and could change so many lives for the better, and I have fears that even if I accomplish those things they will all come crumbling down. My main purpose of this has always been to be real. To not be the one everyone wants to be like. There are some bloggers, and I sit in amazement at their accomplishments, both personally and professionally and I think how much I wish I was like them. But, I am not. I am me, and my life is quite messy and my best guess is, your’s is too. Marriage isn’t easy. Children aren’t easy. Work isn’t easy, both in and out of the home. Recreation isn’t easy, and relationships in general… well… they aren’t easy.

The one thing that is easy: Prayer. Because in the midst of your “I don’t know if I can keep doing this moment”, there is a still small voice. The one that spoke you into existence that says, “my strength is made perfect in your weakness”. It’s true isn’t it? When we can no longer hold our head up, mysteriously and miraculously, it somehow sits up there… and not only is it functional as a hat holder- there is a smile that comes from deep within, that the God of the Universe is FULLY invested in my mess. He isn’t a Jeanie in the bottle— we can’t “rub” Him the right way- He doesn’t work like that, but He is fully capable and incredibly able to make all of your yucky days; well. He can turn the dark skies to sunny in an instant, and He wants too. That’s my favorite part. He wants to hold my hand. He wants to tell me He loves me, and He wants more than anything to be my everything.

No matter where you are in this journey of life, grace and faith; He is there, and He loves you. So much.

Blessings Friends- whose names I do not know,


It’s Not Over

I am fascinated with the Old Testament. I love the New Testament for obvious reason- He came willing to save me from my sins and died a sinners death of a cross at calvary- this is a big deal, the deal. The reason I rejoice and celebrate and live with hope that I am not alone, that He holds me and draws me near with every breath He allows me to breathe.

But the Old Testament– there is just something about it, that makes me ask questions that lead me to answers that keep me wanting more. Such as… Who were the Kings selected after Saul? Why did the Kingdom divide after Solomon, why were there such evil Kings allowed to sit on the throne in a Holy land? What caused their destruction and ruin? How did so few find a way to stay Holy and God honoring? At what point is one considered evil, or good? This led me to Hezekiah- He of course followed his father Ahaz… one the worst Kings- by deed and actions alone. How did he escape the leading and grooming of his father to become the Best King to reign of those before and after him? What made him different? I don’t have all the answers yet, but I am hoping to shed some light on this for myself.

I have a secondary interesting thing about me… figs. Yeah- I don’t eat them, have no desire to in fact, but I remember learning about Jesus cursing the fig tree a few years ago, and although I had heard the story before, something about it struck me and stuck with me.

1- He was Jesus- There was nothing He couldn’t do

2- Why didn’t He bless it to produce fruit out of season?

3- Why did he use the fig as the example?

I have listed many verses at the bottom if you would like to see the way the Lord has used the fig as an example.

The fig produced leaves that hid the shame of Adam and Eve after they ate of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. When Jesus cursed it, he banished our ability to hide shame in the withered leaves of the fig. He brings things to the light, deals with them and then sets you free clean of all of the mess you made.

Back to Hezekiah-

Hezekiah tried to be a Holy and Just King. He chose to bring back the Honor that King David had initially walked in, He put things back where they belonged, he destroyed idols and halted the worship of other Gods.

I found it very interesting in 2 Kings 20 that Hezekiah prayed and asked for an extension on his life, and he got it!

20 About that time Hezekiah became deathly ill, and the prophet Isaiah son of Amoz went to visit him. He gave the king this message: “This is what the Lord says: Set your affairs in order, for you are going to die. You will not recover from this illness.” ***(WHAT! !)

2 When Hezekiah heard this, he turned his face to the wall and prayed to the Lord, 3 “Remember, O Lord, how I have always been faithful to you and have served you single-mindedly, always doing what pleases you.” Then he broke down and wept bitterly.

4 But before Isaiah had left the middle courtyard,[a] this message came to him from the Lord: 5 “Go back to Hezekiah, the leader of my people. Tell him, ‘This is what the Lord, the God of your ancestor David, says: I have heard your prayer and seen your tears. I will heal you, and three days from now you will get out of bed and go to the Temple of the Lord. 6 I will add fifteen years to your life, and I will rescue you and this city from the king of Assyria. I will defend this city for my own honor and for the sake of my servant David.’”

7 Then Isaiah said, “Make an ointment from figs.” So Hezekiah’s servants spread the ointment over the boil, and Hezekiah recovered!

It isn’t over- Even when the Lord Himself has told you it is over… He says, ask me, knock and the door will be opened.  Keep pressing on, I love you! I want to extend your life! I sent my son to do just that! Give you life ever lasting.

Read through this part of the Old Testament- it’s fascinating. Hezekiah is proof that no matter who your momma or daddy was, no matter what they did, He is able to make you into a man or woman after His heart. Hezekiah’s dad, along with the elders of the temple, sacrificed there children into the fiery mouth of a False God, where they died a bitter and horrendous death. Hezekiah rose to power and restored the true God to the people of his nation- you can too; in your every day life, give hope, and love and show Jesus here.





Genesis 3:7  At that moment their eyes were opened, and they suddenly felt shame at their nakedness. So they sewed fig leaves together to cover themselves.

Deuteronomy 8:8 It is a land of wheat and barley; of grapevines, fig trees, and pomegranates; of olive oil and honey.

Judges 9:9 But the olive tree refused, saying, ‘Should I quit producing the olive oil that blesses both God and people, just to wave back and forth over the trees?’ 10 “Then they said to the fig tree, ‘You be our king!’11 But the fig tree also refused, saying, ‘Should I quit producing my sweet fruit just to wave back and forth over the trees?’

1 Kings 10:27 The king made silver as plentiful in Jerusalem as stone. And valuable cedar timber was as common as the sycamore-fig trees that grow in the foothills of Judah.

1 Kings 4: 25 During the lifetime of Solomon, all of Judah and Israel lived in peace and safety. And from Dan in the north to Beersheba in the south, each family had its own home and garden.[a]

2 Kings 18: 31 “Don’t listen to Hezekiah! These are the terms the king of Assyria is offering: Make peace with me—open the gates and come out. Then each of you can continue eating from your own grapevine and fig tree and drinking from your own well.

2 Kings 20:7 Then Isaiah said, “Make an ointment from figs.” So Hezekiah’s servants spread the ointment over the boil, and Hezekiah recovered!

Isaiah 34:4 The heavens above will melt away and disappear like a rolled-up scroll. The stars will fall from the sky like withered leaves from a grapevine, or shriveled figs from a fig tree.

Isaiah 36:16 “Don’t listen to Hezekiah! These are the terms the king of Assyria is offering: Make peace with me—open the gates and come out. Then each of you can continue eating from your own grapevine and fig tree and drinking from your own well.

Isaiah 3821 Isaiah had said to Hezekiah’s servants, “Make an ointment from figs and spread it over the boil, and Hezekiah will recover.”

Jeremiah 8: 13 I will surely consume them. There will be no more harvests of figs and grapes.Their fruit trees will all die. Whatever I gave them will soon be gone. I, the Lord, have spoken!’

Jeremiah 24 After King Nebuchadnezzar[a] of Babylon exiled Jehoiachin[b] son of Jehoiakim, king of Judah, to Babylon along with the officials of Judah and all the craftsmen and artisans, the Lord gave me this vision. I saw two baskets of figs placed in front of the Lord’s Temple in Jerusalem. 2 One basket was filled with fresh, ripe figs, while the other was filled with bad figs that were too rotten to eat.

3 Then the Lord said to me, “What do you see, Jeremiah?”

I replied, “Figs, some very good and some very bad, too rotten to eat.”

4 Then the Lord gave me this message: 5 “This is what theLord, the God of Israel, says: The good figs represent the exiles I sent from Judah to the land of the Babylonians.[c] 6 I will watch over and care for them, and I will bring them back here again. I will build them up and not tear them down. I will plant them and not uproot them. 7 I will give them hearts that recognize me as the Lord. They will be my people, and I will be their God, for they will return to me wholeheartedly.

8 “But the bad figs,” the Lord said, “represent King Zedekiah of Judah, his officials, all the people left in Jerusalem, and those who live in Egypt. I will treat them like bad figs, too rotten to eat. 9 I will make them an object of horror and a symbol of evil to every nation on earth. They will be disgraced and mocked, taunted and cursed, wherever I scatter them. 10 And I will send war, famine, and disease until they have vanished from the land of Israel, which I gave to them and their ancestors.”

Matthew 21:18 In the morning, as Jesus was returning to Jerusalem, he was hungry, 19 and he noticed a fig tree beside the road. He went over to see if there were any figs, but there were only leaves. Then he said to it, “May you never bear fruit again!”And immediately the fig tree withered up.

20 The disciples were amazed when they saw this and asked, “How did the fig tree wither so quickly?”

21 Then Jesus told them, “I tell you the truth, if you have faith and don’t doubt, you can do things like this and much more. You can even say to this mountain, ‘May you be lifted up and thrown into the sea,’ and it will happen. 22 You can pray for anything, and if you have faith, you will receive it.”

Sooo Many Verses- I didn’t list them all. Just a few if Your Curiosity gets to you too!!!




Standing in the Fire

Hi All! I hope this Friday found you in bright spirits! 

I am soliciting your prayers today. I know a few people right now going through life events that have the potential to take out the generations behind them. I won’t list their names, but they are hurting; truly devastated by what has been allowed in their lives. Strength only lasts until you believe hope is gone. I need your prayers for renewed strength, a renewed fight to rise up in them.

They need you. In my own marriage, when the days were so black that I couldn’t see the flame of hope in the distance, I had folks I didn’t know standing in the gap for me. They need you dear gap. There are children involved, hurting, confused children. Please lift them up, the Lord know who they are.

On the earth today men encounter more temptation than ever before. The enemy has placed his attacks on men. He took what God intended for good and perverted it. He knows that if He can take the man out- the entire family falls in his wake.

The greatest problem facing our churches, isn’t people leaving when they turn 18. It is dads being lured away, and mothers being told by the church, that if it was adultery the Bible says you can get divorce. Why do you think the enemy uses this? Why is sexual perversion the largest sin ripping families apart, because the enemy knows the word, and he says, If I can get a man from the church to commit adultery, I get his whole family and the church will back me up. Adultery isn’t a reason to divorce your spouse. I know there are some of you, who have lived with this and said, “when is enough, enough?” There are times most anyone will tell you, “you have gone through enough. you have tried, let it be”. THANK THE LORD, Jesus didn’t say on His way to calvary, “I think I have gone through enough, send the angels, I have suffered too greatly.”

I know what it is to see repeated painful, family destroying behaviors come into my home, take a piece of what we have worked so hard for and walk out with my peace. I have lived it. I do live it. I know what it is to see the Lord Himself take hold of a man, who doesn’t want anything to do with Him, and turn his entire life around. I have seen it. At the end of everyday, I know I live everyday to bring glory to the Lord. It is my role in this marriage. Marriage wasn’t intended for our happiness, but for His good. Get a prayer grip on your marriage and you don’t let go. You don’t back down, you put the enemy in his place, remind him of where he is. Whose you are. You speak over the doors and windows of your house, and you let people call you crazy and foolish for going back to a man that could cheat, leave, destroy you again; and then you go into your prayer closet and you tell the Lord thank you, for giving you another day with your husband, and ask Him to teach you to love him the way the Lord loves you, to see beyond who he is, to what he will be. Not because you changed him, but because the Lord changed him. Your marriage isn’t any more yours than your money- you are a steward of the marriage covenant, handle it as though it was the Lord’s. He would forgive it, the same way He forgives every other sin in your life. The ones your spouse doesn’t even know about.

Let your marriage define who the Lord is. What He is capable of. DO NOT GIVE UP! He is able. I wish I could tell you everything I have walked through. I wish you could see my tears spilling onto a pillow night after night, asking the Lord why He allowed this. I wish you could see my husband run to the altar as one man, and walking back to me as another. Is he perfect? Nope. Does he still mess up? Yep, but don’t we all? We as women tend to exalt our husbands sin above our own. The Lord doesn’t calculate how much blood Jesus shed for each kind of sin. He sees only a pool of blood at His sons feet.

If you are a married woman, pray for your husband today, you can not fathom the temptation put in place to distract him from you, the Lord and your children. He can not fight this alone, he needs you! Your prayers, your attention, your com hither eyes and your love. True love isn’t a feeling. It is intentional care. It is working through situations you swore you wouldn’t work through in your immaturity before marriage. Pray for woman of God to become mature wives. Spiritually mature, marriage mature, mothering mature. We live in this culture that distracts mothers from their children and they are raising themselves around us while we text, play on the computer, chat on Facebook with people we truly don’t want to see in person, but will sacrifice our time to pretend with, while our children wait patiently for our attention. We ignore our husbands needs because we live over our means and have to work full time to supply the money to fund a lifestyle God didn’t intend, and we are tired from working, and doing the things the Lord intended for us as women.

We are missing the mark- not you- but me. I am missing the mark. Countless babies are being murdered on my watch. This is my time on this earth, He places us here for such a time as this. I am watching divorce stats rise, because I don’t want to get in someone else’s business or get in the mix. Thank the Lord He put His Holy finger in my dirt at the well. Thankfully He took an adulteress woman and turned her into a woman whose desire is to please her God and her man.

We will miss it, and our children will pay. We MUST answer the call to action. We must. Our grandchildren will be completely separated from the Lord if we do not do something now, with this generation. They aren’t satisfied with anything. They want more and more, and they want it now. If we do not teach the contentment that comes from quiet time with Jesus, we are missing it! We are not fulfilling our duty! My toes hurt from stepping on them. This hurts me, it’s a realization that is affecting me. If NOT me, then who? Who will be able to go in my place? NO ONE. I was created with a specific purpose, so were you, and we must ACT. I don’t know how the Lord will lead you to act, but when He whispers, yells nudges you, please obey; my babies may need your children to be leaders of their faith one day, your babies may need my babies to pray with them over a friend when they are standing around the water cooler at work in 15 years. They may need a miracle, but if they don’t know the God of miracles because our culture has replaced him with THINGS, what will they do?

My heart is burdened, I don’t know what to do, or where to start, but at some point we must say, “enough is enough”. I will follow the cross down whatever road it leads me. I will not bow to pressure of my workplace, my culture or MY HOME. For so many, that is the easiest place to fall, when it should be the ONE place there is a standard that is maintained. Heaven should be able to fall in my home, if it isn’t there, that atmosphere isn’t following me anywhere, and without it, without Him,  I can do nothing.

At some point Ladies, and Gents, we will be called to prosecution for our faith, big or small, life or death, job or unemployment. It is coming to that, do not believe that this will all just work itself out without your voice. Without HIM, nothing changes. People are losing their jobs over their beliefs, your security can not be your job! If your in debt work your way out, so that when your faith and beliefs are called into question, you can walk away. He is your provider, your sustenance, it’s all from Him. You didn’t give yourself that career, He did, do not doubt that He will fulfill your dreams desires and visions, if you would, but seek Him First. He will give it all to you. He owns a cattle on a thousand hills… and the HILLS!!! He owns them all! He created this world, do you believe He is unable to grant you good and perfect things, if you offend someone by speaking for your God?

David went against Goliath, not for what He would gain- but because an uncircumcised Philistine dared to utter a word against His God. We go to movies, hear the Lords name used deplorably and we stay for the rest of the movie, because we don’t want to lose money, and the movie won’t affect us… it won’t change us. It’s a lie. It’s a great lie, but it is most assuredly a lie. We will be changed. We will be affected and we will reap what we sow. What goes in, will come out.

I don’t know what I am trying to say here, I just know, I am not ok with the state of this world, the culture and worse the church. Our churches should have a divorce rate of 0%. He didn’t die for your marriages to fail!

When you see a friend going through something- offer to keep the children, give her or them a time to get away from it all. Provide encouragement, not fuel.

If the grass looks greener on the other side, you probably need to take better care of yours. : )

Blessings and so much love.


The Cost of Worship

“When the music fades and all is stripped away, and I simply come. Longing just to be something that’s of worth that will bless your heart, I’ll bring you more than a song, for a song in itself is not what you have required, you search much deeper within, through the way things appear, your looking into my heart.” (Heart of Worship: Michael W. Smith)

I love worship. I sing… some of you don’t know that. It is the greatest strength and weakness in my life. It restores me to His heart when I lift up a song to Him. Something from me, in my voice, human and faulty and at times off key, to Him, is beautiful. Because it is offered in sacrifice. To sing when you are heartbroken a song of praise, is not easy. To present a song of triumph when you are in a battle far from over, is difficult. It pulls a little, a bit like a scab that peels back too early. It hurts.

Worship often seems like a process. If you attend a church around the US, chances are… you start with a fast song, and then after one or two you switch to a slow song, and then the Pastor speaks. This isn’t wrong… hear me on this; it’s not wrong, but something is missing. We are drawn into churches now to fill the seats. The heart for conversion just seems to be lacking. It looks now as though, we are afraid to let you see the real God. The One who moves mountains. The One who saw you in your mother’s womb, before you were ever there. The One who sent His son to die a sinner’s death to pardon you. Why are we afraid for people to experience His presence? Isn’t His presence what brought us to our knees? The knowledge of a Holy God who actually did love us enough to be everything the Bible says He is?

We are under authority in our churches. The Bible confirms that the Lord appoints, so when we are under leadership, even leadership that may seem unjust, or even “off”, the Lord tells us to give honor to the leader above us. To do that is difficult at times, for so many, pulling out is the only option, I challenge you to stay in. That’s right an old fashioned dare. Instead of feeling frustration build and build, begin to pray- let’s be real, if we all prayed for things as often as we say we do… well the world was literally be different wouldn’t it? How about praying for the leaders of your church body- they are under heavy attack. They fight battles beyond what you can see, or even understand. They keep services light so people will come back. You have the power to change that.

You are revival. You choosing to do something different, to experience something different is to bring revival. Revival by definition is to bring to life, or restore to life…. If you are tired of 2 worship songs that last 3 minutes and barely skim the surface of who God is… do something. Don’t leave it up to the worship leaders and pastors… You bring revival. You say, I want more of you God! Pour out your spirit upon this desperate people. Pray for services, begin a prayer group with a focus on seeing the miraculous, or join with the worship band to pray before they go on on Sundays. You have the authority and power of Jesus, stop living like your hands were tied. In prayer, no one has the ability to tie your hands, but you, and a quiet tongue!

The heart of worship, as Michael W. Smith sings, is not about the quality of what you bring. It’s that you came to meet Him. Period. It’s all He longs for, just time with you. Meet with Him. Save some time for Him, give Him a place in your day planner. Love on Him; as He loves on you!



Falling Isn’t Failing If You Don’t Stay Down

Hello My Dear Friends,

I have had such an awesome week! I pray you have as well. There has been a shifting in my home, that has brought such peace!

The more I go into His word, the more confidence I carry that He will sustain me, hold me, guide me and continue to love me.

We live in a generation where the father is most often absent, disconnected or altogether a completely different picture than what our Heavenly Father intended.

I have fallen, and failed to keep the name of the Lord, Holy. My brother has been studying the Lord’s Prayer for teaching the youth group at our church for the last few weeks. I have been going over some of it with him and learning at the same time. He taught on how Honor has been removed from father’s, making the first line of the Lord’s Prayer, weak and ineffective.

The people wanted Jesus to “Teach them to pray”, there was something that happened when He prayed, or there would have been no need to ask for guidance in this.

The first line, “Our Father, who art in heaven, Hallowed by thy name.”

This line would have been uttered in complete submission, love, respect, honor and humility.

Unfortunately, we tend to echo back to God the same respect, and honor we would associate with our earthly father. As I said earlier, I have fallen, and failed to keep the name of the Lord, Holy, in my prayers, in my thoughts, in my mouth, and in my heart. When I am let down, I echo it back to God. There should be a holy reverence for a God who would send His only son to die not only on my behalf, but my children’s behalf. Although I am sure there is a sadness on His behalf He doesn’t see those failures and then plot what we would have to do to correct the error. He sees the spotless lamb of Jesus standing in our place. He who knew no sin, who became sin for our sake.

Our children love to pray over dinner. Our son, wants to always pray- but there are times he is giggling before he gets going, and we have worked hard to convey that God is fun and loving and he loves to hear us speak to Him, to communicate  with Him. At some point, we tried to make God so fun, that we removed the Honor, due to Him. That during our prayer, we are dealing with a serious God, who is moved by our hearts cry, our desperation, along with our laughter and joy created by Him, and through Him. We teach our children that falling down isn’t failing, that by running the race even in last place is winning, if you don’t stop running because you aren’t in the lead.

This week, pray for the men in your life, those you see often, and those, who may be absent from your life. Those that you view as failures, that stayed down, when they had opportunities to get back up, those who God has not stopped running after. Pray for them to be strengthened, prepared to run the race, and fixated on the goal of being in relationship with their creator. Pray for them, because this generation needs them to accomplish the work of the Kingdom, pray for them, so that your view of a father is changed, so that generations that follow would have a strong line of men, who stand firm on the word of God, to lead their wives and children in truth and wisdom.


Much love,


All the Answers…

Have you ever thought you had all the answers? I do that. All the time. I really don’t know how people tolerate me sometimes.

I am at a loss right now, I don’t know all the answers, and the questions are just as concerning. My little guy and my little gal seem to be under some incredible thing, that I can’t see. I know I can pray, and I know all those Biblical things that I can do, and that He will and is doing. I just need your prayers. I need wisdom, the kind that comes from somewhere far off in the distance, but is immediately recognized as the correct option.

I won’t put my children’s business out there, but if you read this, would you pray for them? Would you pray for me? For my husband? That we would have discernment in our dealings with our children. That we would be wise beyond our years and expectations. That we would only make decisions that the Lord would have us make. If you have children, you know what it is to love something beyond understanding. I think the world of my children, they were sent here to bless me, and they do, but they are needing so much from me right now, so much more than I know how to give them. They need the comfort of the Holy Spirit when they don’t understand, the peace of the Lord that goes beyond all things, they need the love of their savior to guide them. I refuse to believe that they are too young to be used by God. They are incredible and mighty soldiers, they aren’t ashamed or embarrassed to speak of God. They walk boldly and encourage others and I won’t allow them to be captured by the enemies army and be tormented, mentally, emotionally or physically.

Pray with me today, not just for my children but for all the children in the world who don’t have mommies to cuddle them at night, or a dad who says, I love you, and means it. For children who have wandered away and been lost to their loved ones, for the ones held in captivity, for the ones who endure torture. We can see an end today, if we join together and set a course for our homes, our schools, and our nation and stand together in prayer, believing that the same God who raised Christ Jesus from the dead is able to do something extraordinary in our nation and this world. We have the ability to put an end to so many things, but our prayers never make it past the thought that we need to pray. I am convinced I have a place in my brain, where my prayers circle around while the busyness of life distracts me and silences my hearts cry. Cry out today. Tell the Lord, that what we desire most is to see his Kingdom here on earth, to see His power and strength displayed, and chains falling off of the bound. If His kingdom is here, all other things that oppose Him, have to flee!



Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! I will be so full, I may need to wear some Pajamas to church on Sunday.

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Praying God’s blessing on you this Holiday season, may you eat well, laugh often, and smile as m
uch as you can. Be praying as well, I saw a woman in the grocery store Tuesday and she was buying some things, and a lot of wine. Anything off about that in the grocery store, nope. Then someone asked her how she was doing this year, and if she was ready for the Holidays. She said she couldn’t wait for it to just be over. Immediately I was impressed with a moment with God. She had lost someone very valuable to her. I could tell. I don’t know if it was to death, or to life without her, but it was pain, and it was tangible.

So many people are hurting this season, and they don’t know what it is to have their hope in the Lord. Be lifting them up. They need a kind and gentle word, a card, a text, a little call that says, “I see you, and you have value. This too shall pass, the Lord has not lifted His hand from you”.

Would you go that one extra step today, and prepare something for someone else for no reason than to make them smile and remind them of what it feels like to be on someone’s mind.

Blessings & Yummy Eating!


Who will you be?

This is the time of year, you are once again surrounded by your family and friends, your loved ones, many who have known you all of your life. They know the good, the bad and the ugly. Seeing them and preparing to see them reminds you of who you were, maybe not who you have become.

I can relate to that from days gone by, struggling to figure out who I was, and living it out in front of the people who always knew me best. I luckily had a family who has accepted me at every turn and loved me right where I was. That has been a gift. Not everyone has that; especially, if you are new Christian returning to a secular family. Some helpful advice, that you can take or leave…

1) Pray for softened hearts

2) Pray that without you telling them, that they realize something is different

3) Don’t chastise them, if they aren’t ready to hear about God’s love for them, don’t push them away

4) Love on them, big time

5) Don’t back away from the new you, you don’t have anything to be ashamed of, you are a new creation

6) “I’m not into that anymore”, will suffice for almost anything you have turned from in your new walk, along with the phrase, “it just doesn’t work for me” is a valid and true reason- because most of the time they want a reason

7) Pray that they will engage with you about that reason later, in private

8) If God tracked you down, He is able and ready to track them down

9) Smile- look like you have Jesus on the inside- he was a fun guy-sinners and children loved Him

10) Enjoy these precious moments with your family, don’t engage in a heated discussion- let the argument drop-If you don’t argue your side, they won’t need to continue arguing and accelerating their side-Jesus came to bring us together, not to rip us apart

11) The last- There are some people in your life, that you may not have seen for awhile that represent some terrible times from your past, some of those people may still engage in sinful behaviors that you don’t engage in anymore, if you don’t feel you are strong enough to walk away, don’t go; it doesn’t mean you are weak, it means you are strong, and the Lord sees you, and will guide you; if you ask Him

Enjoy your Holidays- Have safe travels, I pray this holiday those you love will come to know the One you love.




Intercession Instead of Conversation

Samuel, both 1st and 2nd, are great books to read. I actually get lost in the language, in the constant turning to and from the Lord, by David and others. I found this today and it spoke to me.  2 Samuel 24

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14 David said to Gad, “I am in deep distress. Let us fall into the hands of the Lord, for his mercy is great; but do not let me fall into human hands.”

I was thinking about how we look at other people and then how we handle them. Isn’t it beautiful that David wants to fall into the Lord’s hands? (This entire context I am creating from these words is way off from what was going on around David at the time this happened- for more info please see 2 Samuel 24, but I am going somewhere)

David has an option to have Famine, Plague or Fleeing from His enemies happen. The Lord has told him, one of these 3 is going to happen, but He allows David to choose, and instead of naming the one he wants, David hands it back to the Lord. He never says which it will be, just that he wants to fall into the Lords hands and not human hands.

My mouth can be fierce. I am just being honest, when I am not turning things over to the Lord, I have a terribly yucky mouth regarding others. Do you ever get that way? Where you handle something incredibly indelicately? Instead of protecting a confidence, or someone from being talked about, you actually provide the information for the discussion. God is dealing with me on this.

This is a main reason people choose to not come to or go back to church. We the church will talk about them. We will point out their flaws and their weaknesses, and we do it like this. “We really need to be praying about _______”, “did you hear___________?” Do we pray even once on that phone in that conversation? NO! We don’t do it to be nasty, I really believe people want to help, but talking vs. praying equals negative results.

Out of the three options the unchurched, or unbelievers are given by the church; 1. to be talked about because they are as imperfect as we are because they aren’t in the faith, 2. to go to church and continue getting beat down by everyone around them, christian and non, and 3. to go through sickness, divorce, loss alone, they say… hey none of those work for me- forget this, I will just do what I know. We haven’t shown them that we can take things to God, we have shown them that we will talk about it, because we talk to them about someone else.

I am GUILTY. I won’t be casting any stones today. How different would our internal (me and God), external (me and everyone) relationships be if they were engulfed in prayer. Jesus prays with us for His people, He stands daily in the gap- in intercession on all of our behalf. He is saying, close your mouth and let me speak to my dad through you so we can get some things done for the glory of God!

David sums it up a few verses later in 2 Samuel by saying,

17 When David saw the angel who was striking down the people, he said to the Lord, “I have sinned; I, the shepherd,[c] have done wrong. These are but sheep. What have they done? Let your hand fall on me and my family.”

“Lord, would you let your hand fall on us. To bear the burdens of those who do and don’t know you. Let us stand in intercession instead of conversation regarding them. Let us look and sound like your son when He speaks to you. Cleanse us of unrighteousness that we may be filled with Holy Spirit today. Amen.”